Miss Reiko (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} acutevenus) wrote,@ 2005-03-12 19:21:00 |
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Goodnight for the last time
Tonight is my last night on earth.
A week ago, (Sunday night at 1:30am) someone called me, whispered "you're gonna die in 7 days," and hung up. I freaked out accordingly, worried about it for the next 24 hours and then let it drop. I figured I have 7 days left, so why care right now?
Sunday day I was truly happy for the first time in forever. I've been struggling for a while. I think it started Spring quarter last year, maybe after Barristers got worse Fall quarter and I guess it's taken me the rest of this quarter to get back to where I used to be. I smiled and actually meant it. I thought about tomorrow in terms of what I might accomplish instead of what I had to do. I watched "Their Eyes were Watching God" and decided feel more from now on. I was inspired and motivated.
And then, I went to bed and I was told my life was over...when for the first time in forever I didn't wish in the slightest that I wouldn't wake up in the morning. It was just a prank call. I'm not going to die. It's all just a big coincidence. It does make me happy that I value my life now. I'm really back to normal. I've been doing all I can to always have a good time.
So, just in case tonight is my last night, I don't want it to go to waste. I don't know what I should do, but whatever it is, I guess I'll do my best to make it enjoyable. :)
Tonight is my last night on earth.
A week ago, (Sunday night at 1:30am) someone called me, whispered "you're gonna die in 7 days," and hung up. I freaked out accordingly, worried about it for the next 24 hours and then let it drop. I figured I have 7 days left, so why care right now?
Sunday day I was truly happy for the first time in forever. I've been struggling for a while. I think it started Spring quarter last year, maybe after Barristers got worse Fall quarter and I guess it's taken me the rest of this quarter to get back to where I used to be. I smiled and actually meant it. I thought about tomorrow in terms of what I might accomplish instead of what I had to do. I watched "Their Eyes were Watching God" and decided feel more from now on. I was inspired and motivated.
And then, I went to bed and I was told my life was over...when for the first time in forever I didn't wish in the slightest that I wouldn't wake up in the morning. It was just a prank call. I'm not going to die. It's all just a big coincidence. It does make me happy that I value my life now. I'm really back to normal. I've been doing all I can to always have a good time.
So, just in case tonight is my last night, I don't want it to go to waste. I don't know what I should do, but whatever it is, I guess I'll do my best to make it enjoyable. :)
