Current mood:

happy

date the one you love 2nd best

Right now I'm watching Tokyo Love Story. I'm on episode 5. Nagao's relationship with (secret girl...I don't want to ruin it, but it's not like you didn't see it coming) is so cute and good and healthy. The bring out the best in one another. They can be together and apart, with others or alone...  I dunno...maybe this should go under a cut so i won't feel bad for people who don't want me to spoil it...

So, at first I was sad to see Nagao with Akana, but with Sekiguchi and Mikami, because Sekiguchi has such a huge crush on Mikami, she can't really be herself around him. So, it would probably be even worse between Nagao and her. He couldn't even accept a date with her because he doesn't feel good enough.  It's really sad to not be able to be with the one you truly desire, but I guess at the same time, if that relationship is just going to be held back...then isn't it the same as not being with them at all?  I guess that's how I would be with all the people I get insane crushes on. And I suppose deep down I know I would never be myself around them so I never make the effort to go forward. But at the same time could you really love that other person when you're always thinking about the one you want? 

I don't want to know how this ends. I don't want it to be sad.  It gives me hope that relationships really can be like  my parents'.  I know it's just TV...still... It's nice to know that this kind of thing might be possible...  I just need to let it.

P.S.  Work was really fun today. The best it's been all summer. There were no managers, and few customers, so I just had fun with Mike and Ashley and Q...and they all have myspace...even some of the (35-year old) managers have it...creeeeeepy.