I don't know if it's the chocolate overload, that tomorrow's Valentine's day, or if it's the sappy Korean music in the background, but I miss home and my friends and family like crazy. And I don't mean in an "ohmygod I need to get off this island and away from the staring and being forced to eat fish eyes" kind of way. Nor is it an "I'm going to cry myself to sleep because I can't be with the people who I love the most" kind of pain. It's just a mellow nostalgic, "look at pictures and smile because my friends make me happy" vibe.

I honestly can't wait to get back to the states and resume the rest of my life, uncertain but MINE, with those who help me color my world.

Tbat being said I am extremely uncertain about my future. I want to be back and have choices again, but I haven't figured out what I want yet. I don't know what I want to go to school for, where I want to live, what kind of job I want to take when I get back...there are so many things I need to decide before I pack up my boxes in August and ship them back to the land of Golden Arches, streets of gold, and the Golden Gate Bridge.

Still, I feel like I am at a high point in my life. It's taken me 5 years, but I finally care about the future. I want to wake up in the morning. I care what happens to me. I want to accomplish something. And more importantly, I have the confidence to realize that I might actually be able to do that. (And all this in the freezing Japanese WINTER, guys.)

Anyways, I'm in a good way right now, so I had to get it down. Oyasumi.